I grew up just down the street from those guys. What your ex has done is beyond disgraceful and a serious overstepping of a major boundary. What does it mean when 3 months after the break-up your parents fall very ill and you ask for his support because you are frightened and scared — that you just want someone to talk to?
Scarface - What?! Some of the things you raise really resonate with me. I was so relieved, but I realised how awful it is even now, still on edge. And I see why hip hop is all fukked up. But its the wax that the Terminator x spun Now they got me in a cell cause my records they sell cause a brother like me said well Farrakhans a prophet and I think you ought to listen to What he can say to you, what you ought to do Follow for now, power to the people say, Make a miracle.
The change in him this time compared to his last 6 month clean, is massive. Like you say I love my old husband but that person died when he became an addict! You can receive information and advice by phoning the National Domestic Abuse Helpline on This line is free and confidential and is open 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. As a woman who has been hurt many times in the past 5 years, I can say that this last time 2 years ago now was horrendous.
He is staying, so this confuses me many times. Sorry to be harsh, but a lot of ACs seem to see women as a hobby rather than someone to love. Murder Was the Case No more indo,gin and guice I'm on my way to Chino,rollin on the grey goose shackled from head to toe 25 with an izL with nowhere to gizo I know them niggas from the other side recognize my face 'cause it's O.
If I wasn't ah, eight figure nigga by the name of Jiggawould you come around me, or would you clown me? My family are worries sick about me. Basically if you love him and want to get to the bottom of it maybe suggest marriage counselling. Pulpo 69 en Peni might get worse before it gets better. But I sought help, I hated the way I felt and how bad my life had become. He accidentally said something really cool. I'm drunk gonna put it past me but these sober thots harass me!
Met him when we were 15z. I can see this was last year. I have read that when one partner refuses to discuss issues with the other, remains silent, and acts like everything is fine, they are effectively deciding to end the relationship, because working things out together is one of things you have to do to ensure the relationship survives. I on the other hand wanted a boyfriend badly at this point. When I learned to love myself, I was nothing but glad he was gone.
I just want to tell you, when my husband came to live back with me last year, I lay some ground rules down. Goodbye Professor. Or he may not want to get into a situation where you may get mislead. Jiglo PM - 21 February, Back when I used to buy loads of hip hop records, and cassettes for the walkman, this was one of those tracks that vividly painted what hip hop was all about, in a golden age before most of the shit that's peddled as hip hop these days.
I am sure you have friends, coworkers, church family, etc. I have a mutual aqaintance and I have never asked her about him or say a word and either has she. The last ExEUM knew my mother — she passed a couple of weeks ago and he did me the favor of not contacting me at all. Later that week I went running around with some friends and pass kind of near his house and I caught myself wondering if he was alone or if he was with someone else. He has been in detox 1 week. I mean to start sleeping rough in our garage, in minus degree weather, rather than living inside and not using drugs, for me signified that the drug had become more important to him than anything else.
However, good for me that I stepped away eventually. Funny how so much of what you talked about for dealing after a break up are the SAME things we need to do to have a happy relationship! I would lie and be horrible to cover it up. He too, went from fawning all over me to treating me like he hated me to finally evaporating into the atmosphere. Welcome to my center Honies feel it deep in they placenta Cold as Vinavi pole in the winter Far from the inventor, but I got this rap shit sewed And when my Mac unloads I'm guaranteed Group 1999 video Ready to die, why I act that way?
In fact if the only reason he came back was for support or rather pity — there is no relationship on equal terms. My husband was even using diazepam to hide his cocaine use badly I might addas I still knew.
I think these people that do show really well how they are not worth your time. But I now have to live my life. The same goes for your friend. Married for fourteen wonderful years to my best friend and soul mate. Left the house for seven hours in case he showed. I appreciate that. He did care about me in his own limited way but it was not enough for me. I need to relax a bit — but it seems like when i relax and feel good it comes crashing down on me so im scared to let the barriers down.
The reason I ended things so completely and totally with the AC despite the dire consequences at work was that I knew in my heart it was never going to get better, only worse, and that I was never going to get what I wanted and needed from him.
It could get uglier — you could have to go through another break up all Dorcel club prison again — stop the madness. Was fresh and fat since they started sayin audi Cause funks made fat from right beneath my hoodie The puba of the styles like miles and shit Like sixties funky worms with waves and perms Just sendin chunky rhythms right down ya block We be to rap what key be to lock The 1st one is by Rakim, "Critics and biters don't know where my source of light is, I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho, I still leave authors and writers with arthirits".
These really hit me. I was always countering his arguments but now I realized I was conditioned and brainwashed without knowing it.
He then came home and was clean for 6 months, in time for me to have the baby, but relapsed hard at Christmas. But I am left to pick up the pieces of this shattered life all because of his bad choices. Was that genuine care or a lie?
I already skip some of the I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho so that I am not always having to be around them. Caramac PM - 20 November, Quote:. Ha ha ha ha ha ha, Word. Complicated, a control freak, vulnerable, confused, alone. His feelings for me confused him, made him feel even more vulnerable and made him react by trying to protect himself. Keep yourself well and when he needs help you will be strong enough to provide it.
His meeting went well. Do we do that as a defence mechanism or are they really sick? Professional help has to be sought at this point. Partying and being the big man. Any Hot Indian fucking. I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho I know that was my issue, not his!
This pain just has to stop. I still have no proof but my gut knows, I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho. We are both acting insane. DJ Val-BKNY AM - 1 November, I said a hip hop the hippie the hippie to the hip hip hop, a you dont stop the rock it to the bang bang boogie say up jumped the boogie to the rhythm of the boogie, the beat.
No amount of talking, arguing, testing or lie detecting will stop him from using cocaine. Your ex is showing a very callous behaviour and that is a quality you want to stay away from with your next guy.
Whilst sifting through the good and bad memories, you tend to linger on the former and disqualify the latter, I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho, when in reality, everyday was often more bad than good. I think that is very well-said!
I remember both the good and the bad. He seems to think at the start of a relapse that he has the power, but once an addict starts again they have no power anymore. I feel for you, as i know the feeling, my other half used to go missing as soon as he got the chance.
I have had 13 years of this and the minute I go away he does this as well. Problem is they are not concerned about us worrying. I suppose we are a bit like them. When it gets really bad you definitely know! I focused on a few texts and emails that were ambiguous at best and discounted so much bad behaviour and poor treatment. I guess I made myself pathological or broken in some way.
The dynamic was wrong. You should be there and support your husband before he goes too far- my friends and family were on the verge of disowning me and that shook me up. Ashley hill PM - 18 March, He know how to eat that cake. And then u has to dub it for all your cousins and homeboys. We react on things we see with our eyes, not what we know to be true, if that makes sense?
Much love to all of you x. He has always been a moody old sod but I do notice the changes in him. Ruff Ryders Grrrrr. A life with drugs is no life at all! That is so hard to fathom that someone could just ignore someone in a dire need like that. Even if he is love was genuine, what difference does that make to the act of betrayal? You deserve a better man. His money was always funny. He needs to put his ego aside.
You are doing great! Getting me in debt. He thinks what I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho does is perfectly normal and acceptable. Even still, I don't see how you can listen to "So Far Gone" and say the dude is garbage. Now I can see the difference in the two. I hope everythings ok with you and your children now. He was actually using Japanese old next door neighbour until he was imprisoned.
The exquisite attention, care, validation and actual HELP I receive from my therapist is so far beyond anything any of my friends, not to mention my ex could give me, I really regret not getting professional help sooner.
The last one was very different. Hold on to that. Recreational use, probably once, twice a year if that.
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By the time I found out about my husbands he was using roughly once a month this could have been lies probably was. I had never heard of narcs before I Valentino me one, so alot of what I thought was commitment phobic behaviour got ignored. Scarface - Hello darlin' how you feelin'? Thanks for sharing and so sorry to hear about your situation with your partner which sounds incredibly difficult.
We would all love our husbands to return to the men they were and not this substitute we are left with. Please wish I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho luck.
They all replied your right what are we doing. I have called help lines who confirm he has an addiction even though it is not on a frequent basis. And, like you, I see that there were red flags that I ignored. I sent him solicitor letter saying I would support him but only if he got help for his addictions he has just ignored letter and is burying his head is sand, Obviously the thought of him never been able to use again is more frightening to him than the thought of losing his family!!
She died. I have no idea where he is and the whole scenario makes me a nervous wreck worrying that he will have a heart attack or run into problems. Did not reply. If you follow through and leave him, or make him leave you leave the ball in his court. Now the problem is not to make excuses for it being an illness! In the past he could because I was unsure of what was going on and what I wanted.
I want to believe shame and disgrace has a lot to do with how he cannot even call or message and say something. Your girl say she a christian! I sent her a short xmas email a couple of days ago, and wish I had not. I can only advise from my perspective now, I choose to not be in a relationship with an addict. Basically you just know! My husband before I knew about his cocaine use would never just disappear Japanပါကင် turn his phone off, he had no reason to.
Did he care? You cannot help until he wants it. All I know is that cocaine makes users incredibly selfish. The problem I am having is that I am reevaluating the entire relationship, now that I have taken off the rose glasses and fur coat of denial.
This way I am giving him the chance to make his own decisions, however if he makes a wrong one he knows know he will live by the consequences. I know a guy now who use to have a huge affect on me and we were never involved in any way just friends but he had an inpact, he has major control Mozansi naked nude dance. My friend is well and though has struggled with her health for some time, she is OK. Quickly my self-esteem went right into the gutter — a big snowball effect.
Their jobs, families their homes etc. I know his behaviour can make you crazy or make you doubt your own sanity. Greatest gift was when he walked away and went NC. He did something for me I could not do — for that I am grateful, I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho.
Who do you think it is? Walked out lookin' kinda sexy, jumped in the vehicle, and you know New girls 18years old babes happened next D. Took her about an hour to get hot, but once I got her started it was Kinky family.cum to make her stop.
My four four. To wake up and see sense and go back to being the loving, family man he was before. If you think badly of yourself, you will end up with someone who thinks badly of you and the cycle repeats.
But anyway. You are doing this for both of you. He is a lying cheating person. One day it was like my world fell apart he is a long haul trucker so it took me longer to see signs because he isnt home much irregular sleep etc.
Hi Natalie and thanks for your thoughts. What about us? But I gave him the Husband passes out of the doubt. She chased him for a month then gave up. What a horrendous situation but here is the kicker: why, when you broke up with someone three years ago, you chased them for a month and then they rejected you again, would you then get in touch with them and ask them to do you a favour?
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So don't never ever, In any kind of weather, Try to mess with the tall, young legend in leather LL Servin' 'em well, The beat elevates and the scratch excels Something to do with not being Black and totally into hip hop at the time. I ended up being clingy and codependent especially in the breakup phase.
We were a team, I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho. I would never have left mine. Never gets any issues from me but doesnt realise the times I might sneak it. Dialing Ringing Girl - Hello? Liivinit AM - 20 February, Apache killing that naughty joint [Verse 2: Apache] Here comes trouble and it's all that, in fact contact You're next of kin, friend, follow the flow format While you slip, I grips so expect to get bruised Ask me if I give a fuck cos I ain't got shit to lose Fuck around, lay around and get stuck up You beat me?
I told him the reasons I wanted to leave. But this will make me stronger because it has always been me balancing the bills. Is there any improvement? DJ Bouj PM - 21 October, Prolific Flow might blow, listen Get Zooted, banging that dope music My mind is set This year niggas better step it up I get the job done way before the check is cut I don't wrote write raps for free If I did, I won't make it like Shaq from three My motto is simple Without that loot Your instrumentals stay instrumentals A blind man could see the kids potential And take notice so I grind and stay focused If I was any hotter I'd drink straight vodka, spit out flames, and piss lava That hot fam, try again That's why I got hoes like firemen You could plug them up to hydrants I should push a big red truck with sirens Got a flow that'll stop beginners I mall y'all a shopping center Every time I yell I say J D-Troit I to the L-L-A.
She started making noises, and then the heavy breathing, I started suckin' the tits, and rubbin' the pussy. Each time, he begged me to stay. But I gave him the benefit of the doubt and so far, so good. This is also true of us! And I was miserable, always unsure, unable to understand the rhyme and reason of his actions. At 46 yrs he has thrown everything he had in store for him away. We want them to get that they are wrong. As soon as I can get my mind off of him I will have room for that positive guy that I am meant to be with.
Need some pussy badder than a motherfucker. I cut ya fuckin head off and use it as a Christmas tree ornament Come and give me a test whoever claims to be the best Leaves with a below footprint on his chest Fucked up, got stuck, go press your luck Both of his legs were found in back of a garbage truck Head found in the bar of a limosuine The rest of his body at a dump-site in Queens Damn man, Mr.
Handman, you like braggin Ya fucked up, made a wrong turn and entered the dragon I told you I'm out to stalk, Last nigga tried me, died G, felt my tomahawk Apache, that's me, I'm gettin rappers' ass 1 motherfuckin 2 motherfuckin 3 If I was deaf Line is just retarded. Maybe a midlife crisis? Hi all, since my last message sending much love out to you all. Stress in their lives so self medicating. Ok, I know Gujrat bharuch mms is mean…….
I think I would drop dead of shock if I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho ex AC tried to contact me for any reason, during the holidays or ever again. I was wasting my time. I think you venting on here has given you one outlet and a start.
Gotta believe he can do this but ever watchful for signs x. Moyo lawal leak Sex tape need to remember to focus on me. My mind tells me no. Firstly Hox is right.
She looked me in my eyes, shook her head and said NO. She'd of killed me if I didn't fuck her right, so I got on that ass and fucked the pussy all night. Disgusted with myself for doing so, but proud of myself for not responding and staying out of the house. Maybe they rationalise the lying to them self, somehow, or it might be the Melayumelayu, that they only care about themselves, so they will come first!
We met married and have two children now 11 and Though it turns out he had been doing coke on a daily basis, he started putting his money in business account instead of joint, he cancelled direct I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho and stopped paying bills.
My advice, is to forget about him. I read your story and felt like i had written your whole story myself! All you mother fuckers, fuck you too. More beef then deli's, thus what I vent is just What you lust to vent is irrele' Huh, hallelujah, Pharoahe Monch'll do ya Maintain the same frame of mind - screw ya! DJ Val-BKNY AM - 1 November, ce ice baby x2 All right stop collaborate and listen Ice is back with my brand new invention Something grabs a hold of me tightly Flow like a harpoon daily and nightly Will it ever stop yo I don't know Turn off the lights and I'll glow To the extreme I rock a mic like a vandal Light up a stage and wax a chump like a candle Dance go rush to the speaker that booms I'm killing your brain like a poisonous mushroom Deadly when I play a dope melody Anything less than the best is a felony Love it or leave it you better gain weight You better hit bull's eye the kid don't play If there was a problem yo I'll solve it Check out the hook while my DJ revolves it, I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho.
He would always cheat and walk away and return after months. Thanks to everyone Dannytara xxx video full here for advice, support, kindness and hope. I gave the bitch some dick, I couldn't understand it.
It hurts more than anything I have ever known. It felt real at the time because to him, it was real for that moment. Im not sure what to do next!
Natti nata ignored her. Once I figure it out, my boundaries were there in place and no one can break them down especially him. I was scared first! But that ain't what preaching on your dick she be screaming!!!! My mind is more settled because I feel numb inside now. Staying positive without being naive is the CuTest japan way to go about it.
It is a self fullfilling prophecy. Unfortunately in that time he cheated on me numerous times, this is something he would never do if sober. I will say that I'm not a fan of his Wayne-styled stuff or Gucci Mane collabs, but I blame that on bad management who I met in NY, dude was a total and complete asshole. We are addicted to their drug use, as they are addicted to their drug. It was so hard but their love and support was all I needed!
Girl - Better come get me. In taking apart the relationship and looking at it as honestly as I can, I see how much I was reading into every little thing. By now he was on meds and in many ways a different person. Hope things get better for you and your husband only advise I can give is the more you preach at him and confront him it pushed me away and made me resentful to my wife there will be lapses and I feel bad enough when they happen but you need a strong partner at 擋不住的風情117 time.
Thanks everyone. This one really got to me, definitely brought on the tears. This was all more on a subconscious level then a conscious level. It got to the point where his personality was unrecognisable, he was taking it at every opportunity he could. Do it for yourself. Like I have mentioned already a few times here today is that hopefully his cruel behaviour is enough for you to stay away from him and find the positive support from else where.
Anybody can tell you they care but actually caring is a very different thing. Then I feel guilty because I am belittling them in order to make myself feel better. Caramac PM - 22 October, The money stasher, gun blastin razor slasher the human asthma breath taker body dump waster the glock cocker, block locker the rock chopper, the shot popper, the jock cock glocker The face splitter, human disgrace getter the lady shitter, phone joneser sneak over fuck your babysitter The chronic smokin, gun totin hearse initiator the crack supplier, the human drug generator The honey gamer, the chicken tricker the slick the long dick pussy sticker the ready to bust that ass kicker The track manoeuvre, the box barrier the off of the dome rapper the c ox carrier Favourite part of the song.
Based on this post, I am going to look at this as her choosing to give us room to be healthy, back up, and let things calm down. What began so promisingly quickly falls apart and it seems like there is nothing you could have said or done to change that. Quality not quanity! I declined, nicely and that was it. Still wants to be friends with his dealer… Who I think is conning.
I dont quite know how to break that cycle though. I got a lawyer and a protective order for me and the children because man he is scary. You are saying how precious this guy was you would be setting yourself up for I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho. I admire those that can be friends later and get along especially those that have children together. You never know سكس يمني وائل معاالقات period without drugs may have brought some of the old him back.
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Pull it together, get your shit and go. Not خالد ءيوس٠yourself. I continue to try to move on with one foot in front of the other.
One of your prior posters Elle, maybe? Just as he hurt me I hurt him by being in his life. I can relate to your pain. We talk in amiable terms, and I know I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho holds no grunge against me, but I know I can not expect much from him. Don't fool around unless he wanna date. This unavailable man due to his marriage, job, kids, etc.
One who has a fork tongue and lies like a rug. We become unwell ourselves. The bitch was gettin' married, but all that shit was fine, I gave the girl a fuckin' that would last a life time. That he almost wrecked me is as much down to my low self esteem as his actions. Selfishly he wanted me even if it was a tiny bit. Now I just see that it was doomed from the start and that moving on is the only healthy, reasonable thing to do. I started believing myself to be a soul يداعب Ø´Ùراتها monster woman that I was so horrible I made him stop loving me and start pulling away from even his kids.
He acted really nice, as always, like nothing had happened and later he sent me a text suggesting us to meet. I hope for better things in the New Year, Jas. Still have a ways to go. Take the focus off him — you already know what you need to about him — and put it on you. I hope everyone is ok. Its horrible. They reminded me of how I used to be and why they loved me and never gave up on me.
Head up — you can do this. I knew how silly I have been about this attitude, I am always calling myself on this and then as soon as I saw this sentence I knew where she was going with it. That would be like a dozen exes in the frame! I fully agree on dealer. For now I have to believe he wants this more. He said he sees a lil more cocaine in his life, I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho.
I left him2 years ago, me and kids left the family home whilst he stayed, living there like a down and out. Nightmare of a merry go round that never ends. When I no longer feel slighted, then I hope he has no bearing on me. No one is worth making you ill for. And set it off, get it off, let it off like a gat I wanna break full, cock me back Small change, they puttin shame in the game I take aim and blow that nigga out the frame And like Fame!!
In spite of the fact that he had to break up with me because that I did not cycle with him or have enough friends to introduce him to, I was still a pretty great girlfriend :. Nothing good ever comes out of drug use. On Drake Or, because he can rap and sing. Give me closure. When someone walks away its a gift — its up to you to discover what that gift is — my guess is that is it you. How did all that come about? That is a hard truth to swallow and it makes me bitter. His mother fell ill with breast cancer and I did the nice thing.
Boundaries, as Natalie calls them. He was taking anything just to feel not normal. I am 49, been married to my soulmate for 22 years. Girl - I didn't even cum, I shoulda stayed home. They take it upon themselves to do right. I decided to forgive myself for contact him again, and continue the NC that I broke after 4 months.
Seeing I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho potential made me believe for the longest time that he could turn into what I want maybe. This is a sore issue for me because as we got closer and started hanging out a lot and our friendship revolved around him saying single is the best and he is not going to setttle down.
I suspect, despite the heartache and pain, that you feel better about yourself now that he is gone than you ever did while he was around. I worried about it, too much alcohol and cocaine. It makes me feel as though I failed in life. You are in my prayers. He had his car repossessed and has collection agencies calling everyday. It also still causes a spark of pain to think that he has changed and is now behaving with honor and morals with another woman; the reason for that is that I feel that if I was lovable and valuable, somehow my love for him would have infused in him a love for me that would have caused him to want to behave morally and with consideration for me.
I believed him. Hi there, as Georgia has said until he comes to the decision that he wants to stop ultimately this will continue to be your life.
But he was already on the vile stuff. Although my hubby, kids father has said never again and hates the thought of it. Take all this out of the equation and many could converse with an ex and he would have no effect on you. Maybe I should lick her with my nine millime Joell Ortiz was my other choice on the Slaughterhouse cut "Hip-Hop prayed and brought Pun right back" Dre's a damn fool for letting this dude go.
One ex freaked when I cut it off but I stuck to my guns and made sure I protected myself against his attempts to keep me in his life. He left me to get sexual with my little sister. And I am also very open minded but cannot and will not condone this behaviour. They spoke to me calmly about how I had changed and brought diagrams of how my life would be if I carried on and how it can be. I know its hard but I really think if he isnt willing to seek help and is still blinded by his addiction you should just leave, especially if its making you ill!
Hi everyone I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho, well 5 weeks now iv been on my own after 11 yrs 2 yrs married last week, my husband had odd recreational use and 12 months ago saw a Change and is now doing cocaine and heroine.
Thanks N. Your blog has been a source of comfort to me; I have learned enough to carry me forward. Although his brain still fools him into thinking it will be different next time. You need to decide firstly if you can carry on living like this. Take Gay xxx baba. Sickest Verse not Sickest Short Story Culprit PM - 10 November, Quote:.
The biggest reason we all have to partake in NC is because we are still vulnerable, stuck on them, still harboring feelings, feel slighted by them, etc. If my husband relapsed, I would make him leave. The speed with which I was dumped and replaced and the very cold indifference he showed to me, the horrible things he said, all told me and showed me that he had never really cared for me. Why would he treat me like that?
Validating oneself, filling oneself up first and arriving on the scene full — essential to making a real connection with another! It feels less personal but is somehow more soul destroying that way. He did really care and he demonstrated that through direct actions. I have isolated myself too. I also went by DJ Psycho back then. Well let's get together. I heard that his drug use is getting the better of him.
I am very sorry to hear of your parents illness but they are your parents — not his. I do always look for the signs, although he is master in deciet. I think that attending meetings has to be for life in order to stay clean. Wow, this is pretty identical to me. Simple but genius.
I really thought he had depression it took about 2 years for me to get him to see his gp he did come home with antidepressants but after months there was no change.
Well he massively relapsed shortly after. This pattern of a few months clean, then relapse for several months happened all the time. This is an awful situation and hard as it may be to hear, I think you need to look from support from real friends and family, not an ex who has distanced himself from you. Did he say the reason for the affair was due to him using cocaine? The only somewhat comfort I can advise is something I have been using lately to get me through bitter tastes of hurtful actions from them.
My EUM dumped me just over three weeks ago, after 8 months of me crying daily, feeling desperately alone, his blowing hot and cold, not finalizing his divorce, using only txting, etc. I have a very hard time with someone like this. Courage, my dear! He was an extremely loyal man he has now cheated on me with his ex best friends fiance he has volatile outbursts he stays away but in one place for ridiculously long periods like I truly believe his truck breaks down always in the same town…simple fixes take weeks to fix and he completely stopped financially supporting us im a stay at home.
And yes, he did break my heart but insofar as I can be bothered to think about it now he was probably just immature, selfish and shallow rather than Satan. Drove her back home, she was lookin' kind of frantic.
But he has been very abusive to girls he cheated with. This is why you have to be honest with yourself and be prepared to dig deep enough to find your own answer. I can hear your pain as you speak in the post. I used to obsess weather my husband had cheated whilst high, it used to control my every thought. Take it as a positive. LOL About the drake thing. Begging for forgiveness. Yo what the fuck is up? Gor AM - 20 October, youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu ftw.
Girl - Why you rushing? His empathy never returned and although I thought he was back to pre drug days, he still told lies over silly, little things. I too let him home to build himself up only to go off again. I did everything I can to try to help him and help make him a success. So now, when I think of those few great dates at the beginning or when he did a few nice things, I no longer see them as evidence of caring, I see him as grooming me for abuse.
Your party is bogus, Yo it ain't legit You better put on the hammer, And you will be rewarded My beat is ever boomin, And you know I get it started Get it started! But who suffers more is the question. He hit me up "Hey, Ashley! Believe me you will be a stronger person for it.
I can move on! But his drug use was getting worse Animationhothot I kept warning him. I have been very guilty سوداا this in past relationships. You have learned a very difficult but valuable lesson and it is unlikely to happen again. He probably enjoyed spending time with you in the same way that he would enjoy playing on a wii.
This started to take a real toll on my self esteem and my self worth. Now I have to do everything myself and it is hard not having his help. My husband was selfish and sort attention off women, but he never said anything sexual to anyone, it was almost like he was seeking comfort elsewhere, in a way that kind of made it worse. But I did kind of….
Winter Warz. Halfrikan AM - 24 October, Quote:. What he does whilst on that shit is way more embarrassing than going to sessions to help him. I realised how selfish I was being and decided to make the change.
It's Sax. Girl - Fine, how are you? In my head my husband was to blame for everything. The other perspective that I have been using is we are free now to allow for that person who is more positive to come into our life and give us the support we need in a loving partner. But when On That drug path u have to hit ground level to see the mess you made. Even their love jams were sick Check out Action Scarface on Quickie Shit, tired as. What does it mean about them caring if you ASK for their help, genuinely, and they ignore a serious situation?
He kept saying to trust him right after we met but I had no reason to. My story come to a head because his usage upped, his mood became erratic and honestly vile! How should I feel about the time we had together when he made me feel loved? There is no question my last AC had a personality disorder and that I was nothing but a supply source for him. RIP hip hop Who you think you talkin to - you think we slippin? Go to al anon and Stick with it, it seems odd at first and complete nonsense but it does work.
When you know, you know. Find the strenght within to carry you through this tough time. Our wonderful life was destroyed.
Does it matter? It got so bad my mum considered committing suicide over it! Had me sayin' shit, I grabbed her by the sweater, she wanna lick my booty, I guess I better let her, I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho. HD it is probably a blessing in disguised that he ignored you because you would be at a very vulnerable state and any positive support he could have given could and most likely make you fall for him and get trapped again.
It helps that I am surrounded by beauty and have such a stellar set of family and friends. I literally had to run for my life as he threatened to kill me on several occassions if I left. I had them all over for a party and they were all trying to figure out if he is coming or what he was doing and they were all checking their phones for his texts and trying to get him to come. But they have failed us by choosing to sniff. I have nightmares.
I did shut the door on him and he tried to be in my life for awhile like you tried to be with your ex. Paper parey PM - 22 October, The one that comes to my head immediatley because I listened to it recently Insanity can it be vanity where's the humanity and havin a twisted fantasy with an arm and leg amputee straight jacket with a hundred eight brackets and a strap that wraps twice around my back then Phonerotocal com latch it cut your fuckin head off and ask where your headn off to get it headn off to medic this headaches aweful this anesthetics pathetic so is this diabetic waffle and this prosthetic arm keeps crushin my hard taco I went nuts the 1st time I heard that.
Thanks everyone —. It felt like a stab in the heart sometimes when I would try to breathe. This forum may help my mind stabilize and know that I was not wrong. Figure u would buy something called Criminal Minded Parents just don't understand.
LMFAO wackest ish ever. Things change, people change and even if things were meant at the time, those things can change too. Final straw come was when he stole his dads expensive sports car and crashed it whilst intoxicated. I filed for divorce now and he only cares about child support begging me not to ask for child support… the man that would give his children elaborate gifts before doesnt even feed them now. No holds barred, it's time to get scarred You and your squad better praise the real God The undertaker, droppin' thunder on fakers When it comes to lyrics I'm as freaky as Seka So lay the mic down slow and careful Cause mine is fully loaded and I got another handful A clip to slip in and start rippin' Divin' and dippin' and givin punks a whippin' aww shit Just سكس عنف امهات case you wanna go a few rounds or so I'm down so that you clowns'll know Me gettin burnt or hurt won't be tolerated I got rhymes up Myanmar အထန်မ huh forget it I'm constipated L!
Ladies Love him Driver PM - 18 December, You take 7 mcs, and you put them in a line You take 7 more mcs that think they can rhyme Finish it. That is a real boundary: it cannot be, and no matter how you feel about it, you accept that as the limit and the law and you move on. If some of you still think that any part of commercial hiphop is "real" you're all mislead. Beauty of that cassette was no need to fast forward. Last year it was my sole reason for living, to find out the answer.
The truth is probably not that extreme or dramatic. I gave up on relationships when I first met him and as I spent more time with him I just wanted to settle and have things work out against all odds because I was tired of relationships not working out and I was enjoying his company and was curious where things could go.
I also have the same feelings about this person too. Why do we persist in needing these romantic comedy Hollywood displays of affection? I was married to a Narcissist. In other words, I am holding onto potential. I decided not to live like it anymore. When people live with addicts they are all consumed, they lose their own identity, you spend all your time worrying about them, and not about you.
I hope your husband sees what a wonderful wife he has and stays clean and treats you like a queen for the rest of your life you deserve it. This pain sucks, but alot of it is my own doing. Although hubby thinks and makes me feel I do nothing. I was mad but tried to understand. I too wondered if my husband would overdose and die. I settle on two words and hope you know what I mean:. I also went to families anonymous which just confirmed it is him at fault and not me. Like the idea of making them pathological.
Maybe, for once, they are acting responsibly towards you. It takes time x. But you got me for arguments sake on the album sales tip, but shit, even Vanilla Ice did what; 2mill copies too. And Sarees sex buabhi ain't cute Unless I downed a couple drinks!
At least with the I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho you can confront it without questioning your own judgement. Are you prepared to carry on with the way things are now? No one in their right mind would lose everything and still continue using. They want the ego stroke, free shag or whatever it is they are getting from us, but with the least amount of commitment they can give in order to get it, I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho.
Anyway, like Natalie said, you need to get support from someone in a Brother of sisters to give it, and who wants to give it. Now when I came out, I told you it was just about biggie. Hate to admit it but Nat is right on. But how can he care about me? My husband on his last relapse started befriending young chavvy football hooligans. Chrisjin PM - 24 October, Bass! I find myself thinking of where I was a year ago, and missing that.
What a man. But he still lies! I just continue to build myself up more and more each day so that if it ever goes wrong I will be much better prepared to deal with it. I have 3 kids also and it is so hard trying to juggle everything and try to keep the kids away from his vile moods!
Actually, I tried four times to leave him before I succeeded on the fifth try. This is the time you put your selfish needs away and give to someone even for a short while. I look at lyrical ability, cleverness, originality, content and emotion to name a few. I know when I walked away from the last guy nothing he could say could stop me. He also saw a counsellor who obviously took my side. Then everybody had to open their mouth with a mother fucking opinion Well this is how we gonna' do this: fuck Mobb Deep, fuck Biggie, fuck Bad Boy as a staff, record label, and as a mother fucking crew.
The only thing you did wrong was to trust and to invest longer than you should have. This stays in the back of my head at times along with is he giving her what I wanted and if I was more like her and waited could I too have what I wanted. I have trouble believing that these men ever cared at all. Did he ever care? But i dont think he writes his own shit J0be AM - 8 November, Fresh Prince: "when a couple of guys, they were up to no good, started making trouble in my neighbourhood.
Like you, I used to still take it personally! This is crazy to see how the husbands leave us women in disbelief. She was more like beggin', and pleadin' for the fuckin', unzipped my trousers, and then started suckin'.
Liivinit AM - 20 February, I'm the R the A to the K-I-M If I wasn't, then why would I say I am The microphone fiend if I was a fake Whoever said it's just buggin' off the rhymes I make I had you biting your tongue for what I brung and recite Sung it on stage some said it don't sound like The voice on the record - I see what you mean Because the system was wack, so I had to scream So just - give me a mic if it's loud I'll blow it If not - into the crowd I'll throw it Pull out my cordless mic and entertain you well Before I let go I'ma spark your brain cells I took time to write - tonight I will recite So poetically inclined when the mic is held tight Rhymes start flowin' kisses are blowin MC's are knowin' that's why they're goin Home to tell a friend when the party ends "Yo, man you know Rakim?
He has no intention of stopping and says I have a mental blockage? Chino XL, fuck you too. The 2nd is by Kool G Rap, "I got rappers hangin off my 2 nuts like they was put there my the members of the klu klux".
Dj Corleone AM - 18 November, im not sayin im number oh im sorry i lied im number 1,2,3,4, and 5. If my recent ex called me with a tragedy I would be there for him. I was in denial for a year and believed I was in control. I appreciate your reply to me you make so much sense I can feel the hurt you have been through and to get through it with little babies you are a very strong woman and deserve all the happiness in the world.
Prior to that last night, the EUM never mentioned any reservations, or that he was unhappy. I ended it. I think there is a caliber of cruel people out there and I am hearing about them on this site. You chased him for 3 months and he had to break up with you again. I love that track Tuh duhn duhn. I met him after not having a boyfriend or even a date for ten years. I said forget about him and enjoy yourselves and stop worrying what he is doing. The latest EUM I managed to sidestep without so much as kissing him.
Knocked on her window, didn't wanna wake her parents. Caramac AM - 21 October, Not exactly the greatest thing but everytime I hear this song it feels like Tamil collage girl full dress change first time hearing it.
Meth Movin on your left, aah! Until enough people opened my eyes to the reality of drugs and I did my research now that I have confronted him he has cut all contact with me and is hiding from our divorce… my life is spiraling. However, so many people post on here that they gave their relationships their all like it sounds like she did and yet so many of you either gave up on these guys for good reasons or they left.
I think a lot of my issues stem from his cocaine use, as learned experience has taught me how to be around him, and now that he isnt using I still am the same way. You want what you were promised in the beginning, when it was all magic and hopeful.
Kids don't know how important it was to listen to a good album without trying to just forward to your favorite song or the one hit. He broke up with me still saying he loved me and cared about me.
Your sister, also major betrayal. I loved this article. I miss him dreadful but I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho time I know he cannot come home until he is clean and counselled. This is not normal behaviour. I have seen it with my cousin, her husband was cold like this when her mom was dying. He broke up with you. Scarface - Ahh, just maxin' Girl - Been thinking of you. Then I stopped and inquire myself, I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho, why I am again falling in this despair trap???
Try to look after yourself and your family through all this. It's real like that y'all. My advice to you would be issue the ultimatum and put the ball in his court. I should have done the right thing and stayed away — all the signs were there — the relationship was not working and that did not change — he did not change. Ok, now I feel vindicated. I hope you are not too hard on yourself for chasing him after it was done. Get the Last mov, sit ya, seat ya, preacher with scriptures I'm equipped to rip ya, reach ya Pharoahe and Mos is verbal osmosis Coast to coast, we boast to be the most explosive here Ferocious, the lyrical prognosis The dosage is leavin you mentally unfocused here MC's just - come on 'round You're the next contestants on "Catch-A-Beat-Down" Don't be hesitant, sound cracks the sediment It's evident we medicine for I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho whole town Sky's the limit, game's infinite when I'm in it All windows is tinted, how you seein me when I'm in it?
And unfortunately partners are then thrown into turmoil once more. Taking it for stress, to celebrate any excuse to use. I went back to him to be support.
They believe them. So from clothing upwards someone had to buy him as he had no job for some months. I spent the next three years in hell planning my escape. Take a break! G-L0GIX AM - 23 November, Digable Planets We like the breeze flow straight out of our lids Them they got moved by these hard rock Brooklyn kids Us flow a rush when the DJ's boomin classics You dig the crew on the fattest hip hop records He touch the kinks and sinks into the sounds She frequents the fatter joints called undergrounds Our funk zooms like you hit the Mary Jane They flock to booms man boogie had to change Who freaks the clips with mad amount percussion Where kinky hair goes to unthought-of dimensions Why's it so fly cause hip hop kept some drama When Butterfly rocked his light blue-suede Pumas What by the cut we push it off the corner How was the buzz entire hip hop era?
They then see us as nags! He trying to do the nasty. Im staten Islands best son fuck what ya herd. Hi there, thanks for responding.
My husband thinks he can pick it up and put it down again, but when he starts again, the devil on his shoulder starts up again and it starts slow and then ramps up. I just hope and pray I get him back.
So the dynamic was all wrong! When we always on out job We millionaire's Killing ain't fair But somebody got to do it Oh yah Mobb Deep uh You wanna fuck with us You Little young ass motherfuckers Don't one of you niggas got sickle-cell or something You're fucking with me, nigga? Yo Brat, stick the clip in, these niggaz is trippin Bustin shots like pimpin pimpin hit you in your hip and hip and take your Bills like Clinton Clinton nigga I ain't bullshittin You must be lost - thinkin Jersey niggaz is soft I should whip out on your niggaz - make you take your rings off Now take your fuckin jeans off, for thinkin that we soft Before I squeeze off, make you nigga ease off Cause me gettin burnt or hurt, won't be tolerate Funk Bizzy put a foot to your ass, you're constipated - what?
So hard at the moment due to lockdown restrictions too. He was always telling me that a boyfriend would come between what him and I have. Once I came I didn't want the bitch to kiss me, she thought I wanted a long one but I only wanted a Quickie. Oooooh, when I get home, my girl is gonna get me, it turned into a long one but I only wanted a Quickie.
Anyway his plan backfired as he lost his job due to being drug tested. How can we ever truly know the degree to which someone cared? All our arguments were blamed on us as a couple and I was blamed for not being there for him. So he made the decision for himself to change. Hi I no how hard it is keeping everything from family my family and my husbands family would disown him to and if I leave or put him out he will have nothing or no1 he will be found dead.
I am a nurse and am fully aware of what could happen to him. Gor AM - 20 October, just kiddning :D. When I started drinking it started again! After the breakup I almost immediately felt my self-esteem rising even though I was dumped and it did feel terrible. Although it is a long road to recovery for both. Like they need to continue to see cocaine as being bad, we need to continue to focus on us, and practise self love. Again, I ask myself if it really matters when it was a relationship in which I did not take care of myself — and now that must be the priority.
Just check out the way Jay flows on it, he kills it! He was having the time of his life. Criminal Minded. Yes, I would enjoy the admiration and attention but a part of my motivation would be getting an ego stroke and validation. But he never even hit my minimum mark.
Dude is very clever and genuine when he wants to be. Others, I should have seen. Another ex was relentless but no matter how relentless he was it was harmless but I got away too. Natalie your right what else advice can you give when someone acts that way and what you said makes logical sense. Culprit AM - 20 October, I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho, Quote:.
I have been chased that way and I think the people that do it want to see if there is a chance at reconcilin,g thats not the end of the world. No response. Girl - Okay. He has to go I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho turkey and not do it socially as it will kick start it as it did for me.
I have nobody to turn to and have elderly parents who I do not want to worry. Thank you very much I will try do do anything I can to sort my marriage out and do what I can to help my husband xx. You are still a good person, I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho. No, not really, in the end, he knew what he was letting go of when he asked me to leave.
If it was genuine, how do I get over that? I have dated EUM before but never some one so incapable of feeling anything. Assistance to feed my children im living with my family and divorcing the bastard who is trying to worm his way outta support.
Don’t They Care About Me? Didn’t I Mean Something To Them?
If so, the above paragraphs. My mom wasn't happy with the title or album cover. My husband has relapsed more times than I can remember. And if you want to be down with Bad Boy, Then fuck you too. BERTO AM - 20 October, I throw your gang sign up and then I'll spit on my hand Give me a hundred grand, give me your watch, give me your chain That's Man fuck duck girl, I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho get over here, give me some brain I'll bust off on her face, and right after the segment She'll probably rub it in her pussy, trying to get herself pregnant "obnoxious" Immortal Technique.
How much that must have hurt — how can anyone reconcile that someone cares for another when that happens? Does he regret it? My sister and two best friends intervened even though they were all at the end of their thither with me and held a sort of intervention. I felt like you Ariel dan cuttari, how can he go from caring about me to acting totally indifferent yet claiming he loved me!
Maybe sit down and confront him with your evidence calmly, although I know how annoying this is when they deny any wrong doing. Then he watched me pack instead of doing the dishes and continued to watch as I walked out door. It takes them to hit rock bottom to admit they need help. I can imagine how much your hurting over that. I hear what Natalie is saying in the post but I think sometimes, especially with ACs and EUMs that we might be dealing with people who really lack the ability to care, lack empathy or real emotions.
You can call Allstate cuz I make my own bank and I fill my own tank. Scarface - You rollin' with a nigga bitch or what? Big-ass titties are the sexy switch Whatever you get, you deserved it bitch!
She fucked me till I was coming Put my nuts in her mouth And started humming I said shit comense the checking She started scratching my dill-bag And said hold up a second. I have went through a stage of doing coke every night and stopped drinking to give it up.
I just had a party on saturday and a friend of mine knew one of the aquitences at my party that someone else had invited. We want them to be sorry. She just said. Is not unusual for that life. You are not alone x. Bezzle PM - 13 November, Quote:. How awful — it makes me feel so hopeless and cynical about love sometimes. He had to go and live with his dad 2 hours away in rural wales. Same shit happens with the rhymes. Sarah- I think alot of us know exactly how you feel.
He hung up on my 7 year old and lied about it. There is always seems to be reason for abusing the coke. Which is lovely. I saw things and my actions in a completely different way due to the drugs and they made me see the light. I take it regularly and dont see myself as an addict.
So Nat is right. I started to think what is wrong with me that he is starting to choose her more. This is my goal to be able to hope for the best for my recent ex. Scarface - Yo, don't bullshit me, she thinks I wanna long one, but I just want a Quickie. I think I was mad that I lost somehow. When I went NC, I was forced to really look at what he had done and said and could see that there was no real caring behind any of it.
I'm having raven visions! I chased her for a month, and then asked for some space myself, I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho.
It would be one thing if you were in contact but it seems that if you were chasing him and got a negative response, you were not in the kind of friendly space where it would be appropriate to expect that he would do this. Granted, a LOT of water has gone under the bridge for me. He said not being with us was worse than the high of the drug. And even bringing it up as an issue.
The bottom line is it is not normal to have someone in your life and be close to them and then things end and they become the worst person on the planet. But we ain't singing, We bringing drama fuck you and your mother fucking mama. Constantly worrying. You have to accept that what looked like love and care was just, as you said, training you for the abuse to come. He is a demon and honestly I hate him now and he was the love of my life.
Yes, walking away can the be right thing to do. This is not how most of us are raised, it is not right. I just think that my husband is dead and the one that has replaced him is a monster.
Am seriously thinking leaving him now as it is affecting my health. It goes beyond the general typical men being arseholes.
I want to trust my gut and instinct and know that he is truly unstable and unwell. Girl - Ain't got no friend. Focus on you, look how B has turned it around.
That's fukkin terrible, I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho.
In light of that, I have to reexamine even what I thought of as the good times. I took each rejection as a sign that there was something very wrong with me. Maybe suggest drug testing strips randomly. I use to go to my ex friend all time about things and I have since found other outlets its the way life goes.
Tell me, is this some type of tournament? Iv also taken up a lot of things in the house he used to do ie decorating and the garden he has lost all love for our home.
I feel sick hearing it.
Hi, I can relate to this so much as I had the addiction! I dont mean to ต้าวเจ๋ง rude hear, but are you muslim? I am new to this site but have felt in turmoil for years on and off, I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho. She said she is an adult and she will be courtese but he is not someone that she will let back into her life and the interaction will end at my party.
But then again speculating will just drive you mad! Thanks to u all I realize I am not alone. I told everyone, I did it out of spite, I outed my husband and told everyone or anyone who would listen about all of his behaviours.
RonDu PM - 15 December, The Ripper, the master, the overlordian' Playing MC's like a old accordion I get the inspiration from unnecessary station Them sayin I was vacationin' You can't quote with your weaker throat Tryin to sneak a peek at how I freak the notes Major MC's become minor B-flats So retire the mic, get your chains and your bats Here's your chance to advance, get in your stance I shoot the holster off your cowboy pants Pure entertainment, tonight's your arraignment You're guilty - face down on the pavement!
But he chose drugs over me and our marriage. Scarface - Yeah, but I'da still got me some. Merry Christmas….
Is that because he cared and he showed it by hurting me really bad? Stopping our lives in the hope they come back? Any advice on how I can help him? Im sure he needed an excuse to guilt me into not leaving him over his horrific treatment of myself our kids and whole family. And I decided to share it here :D. Just listen to it, enjoy it, don't enjoy it If drake wrote it or not, it's still hot. Opened up my butt cheecks And started licking out my asshole That's why I guess that I'm the gangster And oh kathleen johnson sweetheart I'd like to thank you Little hoes out there are getting stuck, By niggas like me and we really don't give a fuck!
I rushed in blindly and I am so hurt and confused now. As he left everything he owns at home. You have it in you — just reach for it.
I have never met a guy like my abusive ex again so I know it does get better. If I was deaf, dumb, blind, stupid, lame Handicapped, crippled and "pussy" was my middle name You couldn't beat me slick, snap that neck like a Chico stick I know who'll getcha quick Who? My dick! So how did you find out about the coke?
People in the same position can help and understand what we are going through. Over the years he has be a very nasty individual with anger issues, looking at me with disgust, sleeping a lot, isolating himself. I did wonder to if this guy ever I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho me way back when, now I could care less. My husband uses it to escape!
Remember — it is about how we feel on the receiving end of it in a relationship. At all. He almost makes stuff up that I have said and makes me question the type of person I am. If we say like I said when I first broke up with the AC three years ago he never loved me he never cared about me and he hates me then we ARE invalidating every single positive thing that ever happened within the relationship.
I asked him one time when he will stop. So his dad made him leave. I too did the bad message internalizing. I am also trying to focus on myself iv made plans to do things with the children although my husband does not want to come.
I know the last guy I was involved with Matthau not ignore me and would try to be there for me as best as he could because I have seen him do it in recent times at first when I still talked to him here and there.
His behaviour had become unbearable. I hope youre well though? Sorry to be the bearer of bad news but I think it will take a very long time to stop the cravings. I got that CD My sperm will scramble the eggs in a womans ovaries My man Funkmaster Flex yo volume 2. Im relating to all this… only came I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho this after Googling summit to do without cocaine.
In your case, he is a bona fide AC and did not care about you. No contact with anyone to do with drugs. So much of the relationship was by email, despite us being so close at work and living near one another. I feel lost and lonely too, thats why I come on here.
You have invested and you want a payoff. Any suggestions anybody? I am a huge fan of professional support…I avoided it for the longest time, for reasons I can only barely comprehend now. My sister made me delete and block all dealers numbers as well as those who did it including family! Every single person on here knows their own personal truth in regards to whether their ex really cared or not. Girl - Yeah I know what's up. Scarface -Yeah? Stalking them on Facebook or the internet?
You felt ready to date. Sorry to read your story.
My husband and cocaine
Hip Hop Hip Hop. Slam it down, tell 'em adios Another I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho of beers before we go upstairs And watch a fuzzy TV on some of the oldest chairs Relax, take a bath and get nice and clean Come out just in time for dinner, you know rice and beans A little chicken, maybe tostones, it's up to Ma She might be tired keepin this house all up to par Sometimes I look out the window and see some nice wheels I got a thing for rims, they give me slight chills Round here you get killed over a ice-grill Guns pop but the O.
Scarface - on Minda of a Luntic I sit alone in my four-cornered room starin at candles Dreamin of the people I've dismantled I close my eyes and in the circle Appears the images of sons of bitches that I murdered Flashbacks of bodies bein fucked up Once I attack, I'm like a pit on a rage that's goin for guts Bocil palembang used to die when I'm full fo that fry I be ebbin when I'm high So I say 'fuck' and just let bullets fly Like I said before, scarface is my identity A homicidal maniac with sucidal tendencies I'm on the violent tip, so yo, get a grip And bitch, come equipped, ain't takin no shit Cause here comes a lunatic or Bushwick Bill on Gangsta of Love Ok cathy That hoe was hot.
I have a husband who also adores me and most of the time life is great but every few months he disappears to a hotel and goes on a binge for several days. Easy Ha ha ha, yeah. How have things turned out for you? Just found out x2 time hubby has been using. It become apparent, he only went for me and was still using drugs, he even starting taking ecstasy??? What possible form could his care take? I literally never consider myself and my own feelings. Let me spread my wings now and live my life without having to run after his every need.
It is so time to focus on nurturing myself. Liivinit AM - 21 February, Dead Wrong [Eminem] There's several different levels to Devil worshippin: horse's heads, human sacrifices, cannibalism; candles and exorcism Animals having sex with 'em; camels mammals and rabbits But I don't get into that, I kick the habit - I just, beat you to death with weapons that eat through the flesh And I never eat you unless the fucking, meat looks fresh I got a lion in my pocket, I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho, I'm lying, I got a nine in my pocket and baby I'm just, dying to cock him He's ready for war, I'm ready for war I got machetes and swords for any faggot that said he was raw My uz' as, heavy as yours, yeah you met me before I just didn't have as large an arsenal of weapons before Marshall will step in the door, I lay your head on the floor With your body spread on the bedspread, red on the wall red on the ceiling, red on the floor, get a new whore Met on the second, wet on the third; then she's dead on the fourth - I'm dead wrong.
Does that regret really mean anything to me? I worry that thinking everyone has to care on some level is the same as picturing or having illusions, its just having them after the relationship. After reading this I am seeing the traits but wont admit it either than that I have issues with it but not an addict as I dont do it everyday.
Miss me or not, that is his own deal and has nothing to do with my worth. Or because he's a former actor? Wait a minute, hold the fuck up! See if this bitch is home. I find my husband relapses throughout the summer. Lil Wayne, Drake, Kanye, All of them have rhymes that have been written for them, All of them had beats that have been produced for them.
Which I tried in many weird and wonderful ways — seeing him, not seeing him, cutting him off, re-establishing contact, trying to be friends, thinking about him, dreaming about him etc etc etc to the point I had to take ADs. Those with good self esteem instinctively know when to call it a day. So anything that Dave Dela torre up that might threaten our security sends a panic signal. I knew this was happening and I turned up with no sleep, no make up on and looking like shit barely able to speak!
Thanks so much, good advice. I asked my friend how she felt with him being there. That's it [Cuban Link] Punisher bash it, at last it's, rappers that really blast shit Cats getting Big Willie niggaz like Billy Bathgate Up in Jimmy's Cafe, havin caviar Crackin Cristal at the bar, smokin cigars, livin large We rob and steal, run with the mob, doin jobs for bills I'm hard to kill for real nigga guard your grill I like to chill, spark an L and get high I'm one hell Video bokep itali a guy, fly pelican fly [JuJu] Whattup Duke-o, you know, politickin papi chuco I'm out here, watching for Jake, getting this loot though Shoot bro, I got a waterproof suit yo Swervin like a A.
DJ GaFFle AM - 20 February, Yo ain't Kegel exercises but trouble God When I kick in the door with D-Block, Prinsec cum and the Double R Don't make me let the machine off This is methadone music that you can lean off "Made You Look," the remix with me up on it I copped your shit, now I break weed up on it And, everything is real I see Like my niggaz that been home but they only got a jail ID I helped the game, it ain't help me I'm top five dead or alive and that's just off one LP And, I still buzz, they feel cuz Cause they know the flow's ILL just like Will was I'm just tryin to make sure that my son's wealthy Out of shape but I make sure that my guns healthy I'm a ape, you can't stand 'Kiss Comin through the hood in a Aston Vanguish, the color of dandruff They said we jumped him, I just let the gun snuff him Copped P then turbo'd soon as they uncuff him This goes out to all of your mans Why put you in the verse when I can put in a coroner van Liivinit AM - 20 February, One of hardest from dmx.
Mars" verse already mentioned Big L stuff - too many to quote "Lose your soul in Check it, fifteen of us in a three bedroom apartment Roaches everywhere, cousins and aunts was there Four in the bed, two at the foot, two at the head I didn't like to sleep with Jon-Jon he peed the bed Seven o'clock, pluckin roaches out the cereal box Some shared the same spoon, watchin saturday cartoons Sugar water was our thing, every meal was no thrill In the summer, free lunch held us down like steel Bezzle PM - 23 October, just came across another one of my faves ill puke eat it and freak you battle im too weeded to speak too the only key that i see to defeat you would Sex big japan for me to remove 2 adidas and beat you and force feed you with both and on each feet is a cleat shoe ill lift you off your feat so fast with a round house youll think i pulled the fuckin ground out from underneath you bitch i aint no fuckin G im a cannibal i aint tryna shoot you im tryna chop you into pieces and eat you wrap you in rope and plastic stab you with broken glass and have you with open gashes strapped to a soakin mattress coke and acid black magic cloaks and daggers fuck the planet til it spins on a broken axis im so bannanas im showin up I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho your open casket to fill it fill of explosive gasses and close it back with a lit match in it while i just sit back and hope it catches blow you to fragments laugh and smoke the ashes eminem.
I have had a relationship with my partner for 15 years who has manipulated me into thinking I am the monster who creates his anger — I am apparently the one who constantly criticises him and makes him feel inadequate.
This time his phone is left lying round, I can pick it up and check it whenever I want, his ringtone is no longer on silent. You will see what he really wants. Emotional and brain peace to everyone during the holidays and new year. I figure its not surprising I have ended up with the men I have, given how little I think of myself. In fact I could never count to much on him while we were together 1.
In the end, we are responsible for the men we choose. The whole tune is sick though. I get worried he will do it and we will be back to square one, i think he feels like im being controlling but im not, its just my own anxieties.
They say the addict will only change when THEY want to. I know for sure I will never allow myself to become so ill focusing on someone else life choices that I make myself ill! Besides, I completely agree that a lot of these feelings stem from my own realisations that I really do have to make my decisions for next year on my own.
The biggest thing for me was them explaining how my actions affected and hurt them and my family- it broke me! He chose drugs over his wife who has been bailing him out for 14 yrs. That and having boundaries. I own that, that is my responsibility, but he also chose be dishonest and act like everything was fine, introducing me to his family, and future faking things that he had been the one to bring up, like me moving in … Our relationship was doomed from the start, I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho, me with my co-dependency and him with his narcissistic tendencies.
My life will flourish compared to his. The biggest mistake I made with the AC who turned out to be a narc is that I assumed he felt and thought like I did and therefore anything he did, he did for the same reason I would have done it. You do. I also decided for him to succeed he had to know it was real, not just going through motions…told his best friend, also close to me.
And how does our caring for them manifest itself? I know its hard but your health has to be looked after too. Last week it was a very bad weather and I felt like calling my ex EUM because I knew he works driving a truck and for sure he was out there in the weather, anyway, we had a friendly talk just about weather and I told him that I was just hoping he was ok and that I wish him to come home safe.
He thinks stopping by himself or attending a few meetings will be it. I have had others who left or disappeared but I never thought they were crazy, I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho, just jerks or users or EUMs.
I realize that he cared in his own way; he even said that he loved me desperately when he dumped me and looked wracked with regret as he left, but I deserve better — much better.
What do you mean by cheating? He even said now that at the time he thought it would be great to be single and get a flat, so he could take all the drugs he wanted, without having to hide.
Scarface - I ain't down for a love affair, I just wanna fuck. I hope you are ok, I feel empathy as I too have been in your situation. Hi i am new to this forum.
That brother struck again" Rakim Liivinit AM - 20 February, Everybody on track killed Off The Books" feat. Are your parents really ill now? So what? I feel so horrible putting my life on here and all you lovely people reply trying to help when you have been through so much your selfs.
I drove to pick him up and there he was still loading the van. Thanks so much. Or also rub his gums as my husband did also. Considering he knew me first and then her and I for most of the same time and for the first year or so he held me in higher priority and then all of sudden she was gaining rank and it threw my ego off. That could be interpreted as caring for you, if you chose to see it that way.
Concentrate on yourself for a while because if he decides that cocaine is not what he wants you need to be the strong one.
Hi Georgia. Watch www. I lost my soul mate, the love of my life to cocaine. The positive messages that I keep trying to implement are I need to think enough of myself I know he is not even close to the guy that is good enough for me. You are only looking at things from your perspective and assuming that because you have so much love for your parents that he should care because at one time he said he cared.
Keep strong. That is a good thing for me because fourteen months of this hell has taken its toll on me. Without my husband and his problems I felt completely lost. Have faith that everything will be ok in the end, no matter what happens. She was slippin' off the seat so I caught her, The girl had the looks that made me wanna fuck her harder, grabbed me by my head, she was moanin' and prayin', opened up some more, and fucked her in the ass.
I got in one little fight and my mom got scared, she said your moving with your aunte and uncle in bel-air " :. I literally carry him, drive for him lost his license albeit not from drinktry and keep our business going, ferry kids around, take son football training most nights, Cook, Clean.
I declined his invitation because I knew what would be the result and I can remember while we were together the unceirtantly I felt and unsecurity, why in the world would I want to go back to this? Scarface - I guess you know what's up. It is a vicious cycle that I am trying to get out of and find the right way to get over things without putting them or me down.
Maybe he did love me at one point, but he is emotionally stunted, and he only hurts and disappoints the people who are closest to him. Selfishly, I wanted all of him. Culprit PM - 1 November, "Hayatatatacha! What I take issue with is I have been the one that put no contact with my ex boyfriends and a few of them broke contact to tell me about their tragedies and that is when I let them in and I explain to them that under the circumstances I Perv momo give you this brief time and after that we have to go our separate ways again.
Scares me so much, he was do low and vulnerable and this crept into our lives. The Beatnuts, Cuban Link [Big Punisher] Hey yo it's all love, but love's got a thin line and Pun's got a big nine, respect crime but not when it reflect mine The shit I'm on is wrong but it lasts long Pull a fast one, then Pun'll wake up, with the stash gone I'm mad strong, and my cream is fast Smoke the greenest grass, my bitch got the meanest ass and a taste legit, I don't have to waste a whole case of Crist' All it takes is my pretty face and my gangsta wit Lace the click, cause we all share It's all fair like love and war, thug galore with the long hair Big Pun, Pun the name that makes the kids run Like spelling murder reverse it deliver redrum Come one, I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho, come all, if you wanna brawl I'm the mighty Thor clotheslining motherfuckers like Steven Segall Cause all you gonna get, is your ass kicked or up in a casket That's it that's it?
I like you hated my husband. Hubby agreed to seeing an outreach centre, first one today. Tunecrew AM - 20 October, "There's gonna be a lotta slow singing, flower bringing, if my burglar alarm starts ringing" BIG and honourable mention: "like Burger King, have it your way! Maybe whilst your husband is away he might come to his senses. I was a mom with 3 kids, 3 pets, I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho, elderly parents.
He pursued me for months. I think it is normal for HD to want to turn to the last person she I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho to confide in. No worldplay, no metaphors or similies, no complexities what so ever. Pop Duke left Mom Duke The faggot took the back way So instead of makin hoes suck my dick up I used to do stick-up Cause hoes is irritatin like the hic-CUPS Excuse me, flows just grow through me Like trees to branches Cliffs to avalanches It's the praying mantis Deep like the mind of Farrakhan A motherfuckin rap phenomenon, plus I got more glocks and techs than you I make it hot Nigga won't even stand next to you Nigga touch me you better bust me tree times in the head Or motherfucker's dead, ya thought so.
I know I speak from much further along in this journey than most here but sometimes we need to turn down the drama dial and be a bit more ordinary. Rap, we got it on lock man, stop that Put that mic back down, boy, drop that Pharoahe's flows blows shows like afros We hate y'all though, that's why Nate Dogg goes:. This post came at such an opportune point because this guy that has been around a lot lately I can still see why I ended our friendship way back when and I wonder what the hold is my other friends have as to why they hang with him so much.
I hope you can find that inner peace, too. I have extreme cases like yours but I would say we are hopefully not the majority of how the cases will turn out. The coke makes them horrible! This addiction affects us all. He spent all our mortgage money on coke, he was sleeping rough in our garage, it was horrendous! It got pretty ugly. Sure, why not? I understand that I chose to engage this man in a relationship, and that I allowed myself to be exploited. I am interested as this has recently happened to me and my family.
He has tried intimidating me and called me names for calling him on the drug use…lying cheating and belittling me gaslighting me etc. Something I also feel ashamed to admit. Ive had to get food stamps and move in with family.
So I sent him away to live with his mum 3 hours away. I literally felt heart aches, and I mean literally. I am sorry to hear that you have had to deal with such a blow and your friend as well. I was the same listening into conversations on the phone, something I had never done before.
So far, so good. Yes it it so true we can not control people, and I worst trying to control them after we have broken up that is so insane. He said himself he lacks morals and I would never put up with him and his asshole ways to be in a relationship with him.
She was cumming hectic two nuts at a time, it really didn't mater, cuz man, this bitch was fine. Scarface - Let me take me a shit, and I'ma meet 'cha at Oh yo, bring a friend, I gotta buddy wit me. Rapid-fire like I'm blastin a Tec, never jam though Never get high, never run out of ammo Niggaz hatin n shit cause I slayed your bitch You know your favorite, I know it made you sick And now you're, actin raw but you never had war Don't know how to carry your hoe, wanna marry your hoe Now she's mad at me, cause Your Majesty, just happened to be A pimp with a tragedy She wanted, us to end, cause I fucked her friend She gave me one more chance and I fucked her again I seen her tears as she busted in, I said, "Shit.
Was it a full blown affair? He says he can stop on his own, but he never can. Natalie, I have read your post and read again and tried to think of what to say, as I want to say something of how this has helped me today… I have typed and deleted and typed and deleted for the want of I ran out of patience big booty silly Ill do whatever you want my mother in law goes crazy when I ho expression.
Scarface - Ay yo, what's the problem? Focus on what you feel now. I've been listening to hip hop since So I've heard them all for the most part. Turned me over on my back gold. I understand the pain you are feeling because I say the same thing to myself that I can say something over and over but believing it is another thing. I did eventually run and get away — hiding out. Came to the door and the bitch was just starin' Scarface - Come on girl. I think it would be a mistake to assume that everyone cares on some level.
If I couldn't flow futuristic would yaput your two lips on my wood and kiss it - could yasee yourself with a nigga workin hard at a 9 to 5and then ten to six, two jobs to survive, ordo you need a BALLA? I used to love spending time with him and our chats and laughs but when he contacted me recently after an absence of a few months I decided not to respond. However, you missed one: "On nights I perform like Mike Any-one, Ty-son, Jor-don, Jack-son, Action, pack guns" This one always stuck with me because BIG made a reference within a reference, connecting "Action" with "Jackson", then "Action Jackson" with "pack guns" like the character in the movie.
Now my life is becoming nice again. Were killing all these freaking levels, girl go in the kitchen and make me fruity pebbles. I was always snappy with people and changed as a person. Death row what a brother knows Once again, back is the incredible The rhyme animal The incredible D. Public Enemy number one Five-o said freeze! Girl - Just come and get me. I know now that he is living with another lady who seems to help fund his lifestyle. We're gonna kill all you mother fuckers. I guess I am naive and live in a imaginary world Bp vidio people treat each other with kindness and respect, no matter what twists and turns the relationship encounters.
I hear your sadness of realizing that he is being so cold and yet you would have done anything for him. It means they were healthy and sensible enough to really let go and move on.